Friday, May 18, 2012
ALL TOGETHER NOW
I am thrilled to be part of Amy McDonalds event ALL TOGETHER NOW. http://butterscape.blogspot.com/ a weekend long blog party.
I am an unschooled, self-taught artist who loves to work with mixed medium. Art dolls are the love of my life but require the time that I don't really have much of at present. When I make an art doll for myself or for another it becomes a transformative process for me, and I do inner work while I work on the doll. My life is very full at the moment and doesn't seem to allow much time for art at present. The crunch is only temporary (at least I hope!). I manage to eek out a few minutes in the day to sketch, plot, plan, even if there's not much time to sit in one place to create.
I will be giving away one of my dolls in a random drawing on Monday.
Amy suggested that we're supposed to talk ourselves up and let you see who we are and how we sparkle and shine. My sparkle needs a little bit of polish these days but each day I try my best to shine my light in the world through my interactions with others, my work (day job), and art (my passion) when I am able to grab a few minutes of the day. I am not defined by my relationships, but they are facets of who I am, each one a precious bit of light in my life. Aside from my relationships, I see myself first and foremost as an artist, and dare I say a healer of broken hearts? How I struggled with allowing myself to call myself this. But I am, and always have been creative. I managed to make some beautiful unique things from practically nothing in the lean years.
I am not defined by my day job, but it is a channel for who and what I am. I do intensive in-home family counseling for high risk low income kids 0-18 and their families in the home. My services are referred when ordinary routes of outpatient therapy and medication are not enough to treat a child and their families to preserve the family and avoid out of home placement for treatment, or to help a traumatized child. My job is challenging, meaningful, and currently has a waiting list as my caseload is twice what I am able to provide. The County in which I live refers to the non-prof for which I work. ART IS THERAPY FOR THE THERAPIST! I truly love my job when I can bring a bit of artmaking into the work. There is nothing that is a greater healer than creating something lovely midst pain and disappointment. Occasionally my experience shows up in my journal pages
I am daughter, sister, wife, mother, grammy, anamcara, friend, mentor, counselor. All of these things, along with my spirituality weave in and out of the tapestry of all that I am. I am 60 years old and still 18 on the inside. I have a child like wonder at the ordinary sacred and ordinary miracles of every day life. They are there, and they "are legion". I am an eternal optimist; my philosophy of life/spirituality/gratitude can probably be best summed up in the simple statement, "LIFE IS GOOD!" (Even when it's not!) I frame my days, beginning and end with this as a mantra, a sort of prayer of praise for all the blessings in my life. I look for beauty in the dark and painful places, as well as beauty in the bright and sparkling places, and the embers of hope that can be found in the shadows.
I am a recovering people pleasing perfectionist, i.e. once upon a time I used to try so very hard to make everyone else happy, and to do it perfectly so. I don't do that very much anymore. I tell my clients, and other women that if they do what is best for them, do what they know is TRULY best for them in their heart of hearts, in the end it will be best for everyone else as well. I have learned to say yes to that which speaks to my heart, and no to that which does not. It does not mean we will not hurt others, pain is part of the human condition and unrealistic expectations we have that people will always be as kind as we are, that people can return in kind that which we have done for them, that people will always sacrifice their own happiness to make us happy, that people will perform as we wish them to perform, say the words we want them to say. I had unrealistic expectations of myself once upon a time.
To win Leonid, leave a comment on this post and I will draw randomly on Monday morning HERE ON THIS BLOG and post the winner here. Please feel free to share with friends and allow them a chance to bring Leonid home.
Life is good!